Posting this simply because I haven’t posted a facespam pic in awhile and I want to show off my amazing boyfriend who I love very much :) this one is staying for awhile ;)
Please don’t tell me I’m falling in love again. Please don’t. Nonononononononono
It sucks when you don’t have anyone to call and talk to for hours when you’re far away from each other because you miss them.
I will never be good enough for you, will I? I mean, I know what I did to you in the past, that one little fuck up, was wrong, but I think I have redeemed myself. I have went out of my way to help you. I’ve gone without things just to make sure you got what you needed. I have risked everything for you, and you still won’t give me a chance. You know I love you and you have seen how much I’ve tried to show you exactly how much I love you. You once told me you cared. Why did you tell me that, knowing how much hope that gave me? What that a lie? Did you just tell me that to start my fall? I gave myself to you that one night. Despite my family and friends’ warnings, I went to you that night and made love to you. It felt just like old times. I felt whole and happy again. It felt right. But what was it to you? Another thing to use to make me fall? You also told me how dark you are, how cursed you are. You said that everyone would run and flee from you. I wouldn’t. You know I wouldn’t. I have never been afraid of you or ran from you. I’ve always ran to you, to help you and to let you know that I was there to help you even if I didn’t know how to. But you still push me off that cliff I’m forever trying to climb. Why? WHY?! I love you so much William Dakota-Li Phillips…Congratulations, you’ve finally made me fall and now I will never get back up. Mission accomplished.
Last night (and this morning) was the greatest moment I have had in a long time. I literally feel like the sun who had been hidden away by the night and is finally breaking that darkness with my rays of sunshine. I can’t begin to explain how I really feel that good because it’s hard. All I can do is walk around with a big grin on my face and dance in circles. I’m getting him back. Slowly but surely, I’m getting Cody back, and I swear that this time I will not let go of such a wonderful thing :)
And I’m sitting here thinking about everything I could be doing with you.
I just want to dance to every love song with you
Me in the hospital with my little sister :) I decided to upload this one of me because you can see my injuries better. I have two stitches on my right eyebrow, a badly road burnt busted lip, road burnt nose, and a mild concussion. I also have badly scarred hands and it’s hard for me to hold/grip anything. My legs are only scarred at the knees. Everybody considers me lucky, which I am. Things could have been much worse and I wouldn’t be here. Even though I have no memory of the accident, it has truly opened my eyes. Never again will I contemplate the thought of suicide because I came pretty damn close to dying and I saw the love of my friends and family that I would’ve left behind me. I am slowly recovering. I am home and resting well but I still have severe headaches and difficulty walking. Maybe I’ll remember more someday. But let my experience show you how precious life is, my fellow followers. It truly is. And know I love you all :)